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fresh prince of ohio
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Accepting my own mortality, and the naturalness of death - the final step in my JW recovery.
by fresh prince of ohio infor people who have a paralyzing fear of dying, to where it seems like it's this horrible, stalking monster, jwism is a powerful sedative.. but really, the idea of living forever, in human form, is nonsense.
living forever isn't about living forever, it's about not dying.. death is natural.
it can be painful, sudden, or both.
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Accepting my own mortality, and the naturalness of death - the final step in my JW recovery.
by fresh prince of ohio infor people who have a paralyzing fear of dying, to where it seems like it's this horrible, stalking monster, jwism is a powerful sedative.. but really, the idea of living forever, in human form, is nonsense.
living forever isn't about living forever, it's about not dying.. death is natural.
it can be painful, sudden, or both.
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fresh prince of ohio
Nice insights adamah.
cofty, you know I'm 42 years old and yet I haven't experienced the death of a close loved one. Kinda crazy.
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Accepting my own mortality, and the naturalness of death - the final step in my JW recovery.
by fresh prince of ohio infor people who have a paralyzing fear of dying, to where it seems like it's this horrible, stalking monster, jwism is a powerful sedative.. but really, the idea of living forever, in human form, is nonsense.
living forever isn't about living forever, it's about not dying.. death is natural.
it can be painful, sudden, or both.
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fresh prince of ohio
Welcome freeatlast!
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Accepting my own mortality, and the naturalness of death - the final step in my JW recovery.
by fresh prince of ohio infor people who have a paralyzing fear of dying, to where it seems like it's this horrible, stalking monster, jwism is a powerful sedative.. but really, the idea of living forever, in human form, is nonsense.
living forever isn't about living forever, it's about not dying.. death is natural.
it can be painful, sudden, or both.
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For people who have a paralyzing fear of dying, to where it seems like it's this horrible, stalking monster, JWism is a powerful sedative.
But really, the idea of living forever, in human form, is nonsense. Imagine being alive, on earth, as a human, around the same other humans, for 52 trillion years. And another 52 trillion years beyond that. And another 52 trillion trillion trillion years beyond that. Nobody wants this. Seriously. Living forever isn't about living forever, it's about not dying.
Death is natural. It can be painful, sudden, or both. It can come when a person is a ripe old age, and better prepared to go back to the dust, or it can come suddenly. It can come in the form of disease, a natural disaster, an automobile accident, starvation...it's forms are infinite. It strikes all ages, races, and nationalities. It does not discriminate.
Think about those people on the Titanic, or any similar disaster. One moment, everything is fine. Then, rumble shake rumble shake what the hell was that? Everybody stay calm, we're ok...well no we're not ok. Mass panic. Women and children first. The horror of it all! Or going down in a commercial jet. Come on! It's crazy!
So I think about what those people experienced. And what everybody who has ever died in one way or another, has experienced. And why should I be exempt? Nobody gets out alive.
I still haven't come to grips with this, not even close. I still live with the idea that death is deeply horrible and profoundly unjust, unfair, and unnatural, and it shouldn't happen to me. I deserve better. And this is where, at heart, I am still a JW.
I don't think anybody looks *forward* to death per se, but I think some people are just more naturally adjusted to the idea that life is finite. That's just the way it is, and there's nothing we can do about it.
So, the final step in my JW recovery is not necessarily to start looking forward to dying, but to accept its naturalness. It happens to everyone eventually. And it's not horrible, unjust, unfair, or whatever, that it happens. It just is. There's no judgment.
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What will the world be like in 2100?
by slimboyfat invery interesting video from futurist james burke.
http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/magazine-24331106.
he believes scarcity will be a thing of the past because of nanofabricators (sounds like a replicator for star trek fans).
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fresh prince of ohio
Yep. That's how it will be In the year 2100. And the year 2100000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000 too.
Think about that.
It's absurd. And it ain't gonna happen.
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breakup guilt
by fresh prince of ohio ini recently broke up with my girlfriend of four years.. she is 40 years old, with health problems, financial problems, little family/friend support, and facing an uncertain future.
i gave her some money.. the guilt i am experiencing right now is absolutely anguishing.
she had very, very high hopes about our relationship and loved me very deeply.
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She's had to pull herself up a few too many times in life. I honestly feel like this one is past her threshold.
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breakup guilt
by fresh prince of ohio ini recently broke up with my girlfriend of four years.. she is 40 years old, with health problems, financial problems, little family/friend support, and facing an uncertain future.
i gave her some money.. the guilt i am experiencing right now is absolutely anguishing.
she had very, very high hopes about our relationship and loved me very deeply.
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fresh prince of ohio
I miss her terribly and not at all. All at the same time. Every waking moment of every day.
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breakup guilt
by fresh prince of ohio ini recently broke up with my girlfriend of four years.. she is 40 years old, with health problems, financial problems, little family/friend support, and facing an uncertain future.
i gave her some money.. the guilt i am experiencing right now is absolutely anguishing.
she had very, very high hopes about our relationship and loved me very deeply.
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fresh prince of ohio
problemaddict, the favor I'd be doing her would be to save her from homelessness or living in a dangerous section 8 apartment or having to move back to her parents place, which is located in a semi-rural area where there are few if any employment opportunities. Or suicide. Or institutionalization.
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breakup guilt
by fresh prince of ohio ini recently broke up with my girlfriend of four years.. she is 40 years old, with health problems, financial problems, little family/friend support, and facing an uncertain future.
i gave her some money.. the guilt i am experiencing right now is absolutely anguishing.
she had very, very high hopes about our relationship and loved me very deeply.
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fresh prince of ohio
I think what this boils down to is finances.
I have been able to "get ahead" at my place of work, at least to some degree, and thus after many years of grinding out a living and not saving much or having nice things, I now make more money than i need, by a considerable margin. I just sock most of it away in a savings account.
When we were together, I took her to nice restaurants. I helped her buy a car. We traveled to Maine, New York, Upper Michigan. Always on my dime. I didn't mind.
It's not that she doesn't work hard. But receptionist work doesn't pay well, and honestly she's not capable of much more than that. She is not business or computer savvy. It's no sin.
She's way underwater with her condo mortgage. Hopelessly underwater. So, foreclosure at some point was always pretty much inevitable, although a bitter pill of course. It was a matter of when, not if. And so, of course what she wanted was to move into my place. She'd be able to garden. I could put her on my health insurance. She'd no longer have to work so much; she could rest and take it easy a little more. I know what some of you may be thinking, but, seriously....everybody has their limits. She gets very heavy periods, experiences intense PMS, experiences extreme fatigue, has major anxiety and depression....she's just not cut out for slogging it out in this world.
I could have given her a better life. And I slammed the door in her face. Because she didn't satisfy my stupid ego.
My supporting her, and caring for her, in a way was my middle finger to the cruel, beat-people-down world. You're not doing that to her. You do it to a lot of people, but not to her. So back the fk off.
I think i will end up going back to her, or i will at least offer her ongoing financial support, at least as long as I'm able to (who knows, I could get laid off any day). I hear what everyone is saying, but, you know, you just can't do that to a girl. You can't do that to a girl. It's just so wrong to leave a woman out there to twist in the wind and struggle, especially one who has problems like she does.
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What will the world be like in 2100?
by slimboyfat invery interesting video from futurist james burke.
http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/magazine-24331106.
he believes scarcity will be a thing of the past because of nanofabricators (sounds like a replicator for star trek fans).
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fresh prince of ohio
I don't think there's a doctor or med in the world that could cure what ails me. I'm glad some here are so sanguine about what the future holds. Again, all I see is drug resistant bacteria, runaway global warming, economic crises, fukushima, food and water shortages...